That's what today feels like. No, I take that back: most of 2008 so far feels like limbo. There's a void of action, of progress, even many times of emotion. Finding things to be happy about doesn't come easily but it's not like we're moping around sad all the time either. We're just waiting for something to happen...and waiting...and waiting.
The appeal of this case for Abenezer should be filed tomorrow. We thought it was going to be filed sooner. This is no one's fault. It just is what it is (which is coming to be my favorite phrase). From the time the case has been filed, we are hoping the court will let us know how long it will take for them to figure out a court date. Sound murky? It is. Little is concrete.
As for other things in our life (work on the house, career issues, church, etc), there are what feels like thousands of little things that are being held up, not moving forward, stalled and stagnant. We are waiting for these thousands of things to be worked out. We are waiting...and waiting more.
Someone suggested I blog on one of my down-days. On those days, I usually end up wailing on the phone with my mom. This isn't one of those, though this may be worse. Today is a nothing day. Nothing, I tell you, nothing. I wish I felt sad. I certainly wish for happiness as well. But Mr. Knot has been moving in to the pit of my stomach, getting all settled in nice and comfy there. He and Ms. Dark Thoughts are new neighbors--she's been playing house in my brain for most of my life, though she does seem to take long vacations now and then.
But today? Man, those two are yucking it up in Lori-land, having a good ole' time. My bet is that by later tonight they will have cracked open a bottle of Jagermeister and started playing with Mr. Knot's new Wii system. I hear he's really into tennis.